Grow old along with me the best is yet to be.

The Past.

Did the past really occur?

Where did it go?

It can’t just be all those things called

Particles

BOOM

I blink and I am here.

Am I the living present or past?

Or I am just here coming up with things 

No one wants to hear

It’s scary because now that I think about it, the past is so near 

Yet I still can’t see it. 

Another nightmare
I wake up in tears, my heart broken soaked In fear
Everything begins to make sense
You drink your pain away
It’s isn’t hard to notice
Youre losing faith
Plain and simple you no longer want to be with me
You drink to pretend that I am not me
Another sip
And It’s clear you no longer want to be with me
Something hard to live with
Because I truly believed you were my prince
The real nightmare begins
I begin to drown I’m my own tears
I look at you my heart aching in fear
You smile at me but I can see that you want to leave
Another sip
Then finally you walk out the door
And I always follow like a dog.
The nightmare begins
You cannot live without your daily sip
Because when you come home you want to be alone
The truth is hard to swallow
But its clear you no longer want me here
Another drink
Your nightmare is no longer be there
Another sip before I walk out the door
Another drink to forget who I am
But you will always have me on the back of your mind.
My name forever on your breath
Like the many drinks you sipped
To forget who I am.

Boy, love isn’t hard to find.
Another fight, and you somehow end up at my door, just like all those times before
And she doesn’t even know
That Im the reason you still have hope
Close your eyes, let your heart be the guide
you’ll find yourself always by my side.
Love isn’t hard to find
Close your eyes,
clear your mind
Leave her behind,
she is harm
Stay with me, true love you will see Love isn’t hard to find,
Again another fight,
And you’ll find your way into my life D
But don’t just stay for night
Another fight, and somehow youre at my door
But you are not mine to keep,
you alwayleave
And always will

I am 21 
But I still remember when I was 9 
When I was young I never imaged I would make it this far
Its amazing how time flies
And how you sometimes cross my mind
I am now 21 
But before I know it I’ll be 41 
Remembering when I was 9
Remembering the night you became mine.
It’s amazing how time flies
I am now 21
Hoping time would slow down once in a while
So I can appreciate your smile.

Oh mother
How I miss your hugs at night
And that long story just before I closed my eyes you were the last thing on my mind.
I would sleep with the sound of your voice and my last remembered breath would lead to a snore
And of course a kiss from mom.
Oh mom
I have grown
You can no longer keep me safe
So I pray
To remember how it felt to be three once again.
How I miss being in your arms
But there were no goodbyes.
You were always by side
Teaching me what is right
Oh mother
How I miss those goodnights
And the lullabies
Oh mother
I have grown but that doesn’t mean I don’t love ya.

I told you, I would never fall apart
I tried, I tried but I can’t get you of my mind.
I close my eyes, and you are standing there.
So close to me
I could feel you breathe
Our hearts on the same rhythm
I am breaking,
Fainting.
I promised, I’d be there to catch fall
But I am laying on the floor,
Breaking.
Fainting.
I promised I’d be whole
But without you Im just a quart.
I told you I would never fall,
A lie I made up, so you can grow.

Another smile shatter in front of your face
Year after year you always leave me in tears
This is the last time, I swear.
The last words on your breath
You always expect me to stay
And I always wait.
You are wasting me away
Something I deeply regret.
Something hard to escape because the passion is there.
Another smile shatter in front of your face.
It hard to watch you walk away
But I can’t make you stay.

officialanonhelp asked: You shouldn't hate yourself, you know why? Cause so many people thinks you're beautiful, and so do I. Maybe it's hard to believe for you, but you are beautiful inside out. Don't ever doubt it. Someone would die to look like you. Don't hate yourself, okay? Everyday you should go to the mirror and pick one thing that you love about yourself, those flaws you have? They make you, you, and that's what makes you so perfect. Alright? Your flaws makes you flawless, always be positive love.

I appreciate that you care. Some of the poems that I write do have something do with my life and how i feel but others don’t. That one in particular was inspired by this person I was talking to at work. Thank you for caring :) 

When I was small
I was so secured,
So You decided to break my hopes
Day by day you told me how worthless I became
When I was young
I knew exactly what I wanted
I had many goals
I loved being the star of the show
I had a lot to live for
Until you came along
I really thought I was strong,
But sadly I was wrong
I was innocent and young
Until you came along
You made me so insecure

its hard to believe you could do this to your own blood. 

I look at my self in the mirror
Even though sometimes I do not like what I see
Sometimes, I do feel pretty
When I do, it feels like I can conquer the world
Like I can do just about anything
I wish I could feel that way everyday
But
There’s times when I hate what I see
My face is too round
My eyelashes short and small , my nose way to big
Why do I look like this?
How I hate looking at me..
I do not feel pretty
And even when I do, I wonder if others think I am a joke.
I wish I could be one of the pretty girls
A cute outfit and out the door.
It’s all a fantasy
The only thing I can changed is my name
My name
I could change my name
But
My face will still look the same.